This Is Me: Where is the Star of my Soul? (Poem)

There isn’t always a trigger or cause to depression, but it does make us crawl away from the world into ourselves.

Depression can effect adults and children of any gender or cultural background. For many these are brief episodes that can be manages and moved past. For others the experience with Depression can be long term and have a negative impact on a persons quality of life. In the most sever cases depression can be linked to suicide or the development of mental and physical issues.

Everyone’s experience with depression is different. The following poem is an account of one individuals empierce over a particularly difficult weekend.

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Where is the Star of my Soul?

Where is the Star of my Soul?

They say loneliness is a dark place

Like a cave or a pit, shut eyes bring an endless night

without stars to map the shifting heavens.

I search for movement, evidence of time passing

Proving there is a beginning, a place this was born

And a promise of an end whether with answers or not.

What is this place? This feeling?

Emotions are colorblind when there is no mirror

Happy or sad are the same when shrouded in mist.

Reach out with a finger, an arm, or a word

Ask for acknowledgment from the emptiness?

Nothing will answer, not even my echo.

I fight to find an opening to this weariness

And expose the raw origins of my depression

To give me the invisible sword to slay my dragons.

Until then, comfort is a fetal self hug and tears,

Although primal and vulnerable, it is me,

And someday I will stand again and face the sun.


Note from the Author

There isn’t always a trigger or cause to depression, but it does make us crawl away from the world into ourselves. Thanks for reading! -Krista

Read more from Krista Here: kmhasling.com


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20 thoughts on “This Is Me: Where is the Star of my Soul? (Poem)

  1. Great poem, although I’ve not battled with depression, so I can’t put myself in the shoes, I can only imagine it in my head, and send love to those who are at the mercy of it, mental health is paramount. Thank you.

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    1. Lovely poem and thanks so much Krista for sharing!! Depression goes beyond the feelings of sadness, I do not suffer with it, but my sister and her best friend both have it. They have highs and lows and go through cycles where they pull deep into a shell and it takes them weeks to come out of it.

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      1. Thank you for reading Rebekah! Thank you for supporting those close to you as they struggle with this tortoise shell.

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  2. This is such a powerful poem! Anyone who has ever suffered from depression can relate to that feeling of a dark timelessness. Not knowing when it began or when it will end. However, my absolute favourite part of this poem is the ending, “Although primal and vulnerable, it is me, And someday I will stand again and face the sun.” It is a wonderful reminder that no matter how bad it gets, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for sharing your beautiful words!

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    1. It was difficult to give color to something so dark and I’m glad the descriptions were vivid to you. Thank you for reading and the comment Daphne!

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  3. What an amazing poem. I too write poems about mental health as I think poetry is the best way to express what it feels like. It is so abstract that often it is hard to explain in any other way.

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    1. Thank you for reading and for commenting. It is hard to share these feelings and I’m glad we can share our experiences of getting through it.

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